A Devotion For Holy Saturday

This is the sixth entry in the UCCDM Lenten Devotional 2015. This reflection for the Holy Saturday comes to us from Rev.Jeanne Tyler who is  the current Vice Chair of UCCDM. Her bio can be found on the Board of Directors page

I grew up in the Episcopal Church in which most every Sunday we said the Apostle’s Creed together. On rare occasions we said the Nicene Creed. I remember saying the words, “crucified and died, descended into hell and rose on the third day. Now, The New Century Hymnal says, “…was crucified, died, and was buried; he descended to the dead. On third third day he rose again;…”.

The Saturday of Holy Week is called Holy Saturday. Like the day of crucifixion is called Good Friday the day between Good Friday and Easter Sunday is named Holy Saturday. I have come to ponder that the naming reflects the reality of reconciliation and redemption. I have come to treasure Holy Saturday. In our daily lives we experience times of defeat and times of victory; times of death and times of life; times of despair and times of joy. We struggle mightily.

For persons with disability, the struggle is complicated by the devil named normalcy. The devil is in the details of living. The grace with which you walk, the ease with which you talk and are understood, your high or low intellect, wheelchair bound, sight impaired, sugar high or way too low, too depressed to get up, too angry to talk, too manic to sit down, talk to people who are not in the room and perhaps have never been in the room. The devil of normalcy is in our minds; it is in our bodies and there is hell to pay.

Holy Saturday is the time of dead. Jesus arrived in the dead as you and I will bearing the scars of life. It is where our deadness meets the deadness of Jesus and where Jesus experienced the devil of normalcy. Yet this deadness is also the darkness which is also fertile and where all growth begins. I call Holy Saturday a day of fertile darkness.

Holy Saturday is the day we tell our stories of pain and anger and cry and experience the reconciliation and redemption of community that turns our cries of pain and anger to tears of joy. It is because Jesus has been here and is still here in the time of the dead that we are able to face ourselves and one another. Within Holy Saturday there is fertile darkness where the seeds of flowers make their beginning or the community makes the mystery of resurrection known as an act of God’s love for all humanity.

Holy Saturday is the day the devil is paid. We are one another’s friends and the reality of reconciliation and redemption is at hand. We are free to love one another, free to forgive ourselves and one another. We are free to proclaim in the growing dawn that which was beginning in the nighttime, Alleluia Christ is Risen!

A Devotion for Good Friday: The Cross of the Visually Impaired

This is the fifth entry in the UCCDM Lenten Devotional 2015. This reflection for Good Friday comes to us from Rev.Lynda Bigler who is  the current Chair of UCCDM. Her bio can be found on the Board of Directors page

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Being legally blind, to me many trees look like lollipops, with their trunks as the stems and their canopies the pops.The tall pines, spruce, and firs that grow here in the Pacific Northwest are like gigantic arrows hoisted far above the ground by sturdy brown shafts.

Our town requires a permit to cut down a tree and homeowners are allowed to cut down only 2 trees on their property per year. Avoiding obtaining a permit or exceeding the permitted number results in a $2,000 fine per removed tree.  In 2015 the tree permit process was modified to state that people removing trees must replant one tree on their property for each one removed.

This permit process assumes that trees are living things, not to be destroyed for random reasons such as a dislike of raking leaves fallen onto a driveway or a desire to eliminate the pesky birds nested in the tree. The number one reason for eliminating a tree here is a dislike of its appearance or color.  The permit process tries to remind us that nature is comprised of living things rather than inanimate objects subject to human whims.

And then it came to me:  Imagine the cross of Jesus as a tree that gave up its life for him.

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There is so much more to a tree than its looks.

In winter people often talk about the quiet, empty, barren landscape of trees.  They look forward to spring when the trees once again will come to life. In the world of the blind and visually impaired, winter trees can be one noisy bunch. They rattle and creak when covered with ice.  Their branches are the surfaces that allow wind to whistle as it blows over them. Swaying branches whoosh like waves breaking on the beach. The scent of evergreens fills the air with a hint of Christmas all winter long.

In spring and summer the trees are full of birdsong and scampering, chattering squirrels.  Trees hiss as rain falls through their leafy canopies. The wind rustles their leaves like girls rustle their crinoline dresses. Apple blossoms, orange blossoms, magnolias, and many other flowering trees fill the air with their sweet scents and promises of what is yet to come at harvest.

In autumn, the world is full of brightly colored lollipops — such an exciting change from the usual green ones!  Autumn brings falling leaves of all colors and shapes as trees shed their “clothing” before going to sleep.  As we walk along streets or sidewalks or forest paths, we hear the crunch of fallen leaves below our feet.  Fallen raked leaves bring fun and laughter as children and adults jump into them.  Although the leaves have died they bring joy to those left behind.  The leaves smell of decay, but their fruits and nuts make us salivate for their taste and sustenance.

The trees ease into sleep. While they appear to be dead, they are actually undergoing significant renewal and strengthening for their rebirth in spring. I am reminded that Holy Saturday is needed for the beauty and joy of Easter to arrive.

Tree trunks vary in texture from rough to smooth.  Most trees in my yard are rough, but the birches shed their bark as they grow, leaving a smooth, wet new skin behind. Bark can be fragrant like cedar or sappy like maples. Moss and English Ivy choke the alder trees beside our house so that when their branches fall, the bark, starved of nutrients, slides right off.

When blood and sweat ran down Jesus’ face as he carried his cross, I wonder if his blurred vision led him to feel each intricate detail of the cross in his hands: the texture, it’s fragrance.  For example, I wonder if his cross still held the scent of a Lebanon cedar. As a carpenter, did the smell of fresh cut wood remind him of his trade as he walked?  Was the cross splintered from being roughly cut?

When Jesus carries his cross to Golgotha, I think of him as beginning his journey as a person with a disability. His vision impaired, his other senses enhanced, Jesus walked toward the physical breaking of his body.  His body, broken for me, enables me, as a person with a disability, to know Jesus has experienced all that we with disabilities experience each minute of every day:  difficulty navigating, struggling to see and speak, unable to hear, mobility a challenge, thoughts a little disorganized or appearing slow, appearance a little bit different sometimes.  Jesus was subjected to the same bullying and taunting that people with disabilities receive.

Jesus asked God to forgive them, for “they know not what they do.”  I, too, forgive, but like Jesus, I also teach ways to act differently. Jesus shows us the big picture of life and death, and big pictures are the specialty of the visually impaired.

When the broken body of Jesus was carried to the tomb, it was carried with love and respect, the same kind of love and respect that those with disabilities may feel from God but not from those around them. How reassuring to know that one day, our bodies, like his, will also be carried with such love and respect.

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I collect crosses.  Each cross in my collection is meaningful to me, not just a fancy piece of sculpture or a fashion statement of jewelry. Each cross is tactile, made from differing materials with varying textures. I have one made of highly polished Koa wood from Hawaii, another made of seashells collected on beach walks in the Bahamas, another made of river rocks by Native Americans living on Oregon’s Warm Springs Indian Reservation.

But my favorite tactile cross was handmade by Frank Poszgai here is Oregon. Intricate yet sturdy, this wooden cross for me is a symbol of the church since the death of Jesus.

What better illustration can there be to connect Jesus and the tree of his cross than to illustrate Jesus’ own words, “I am the vine; you are the branches”?  Imagine this cross planted in the ground, it’s base sending roots to anchor it to the earth, it’s top reaching for heaven, it’s arms reaching out for each and every one of us.  This indeed is the tree of life, grown from the cross of Jesus.  It reminds us to stay rooted in God’s creation, to raise our praise to God in heaven, and reach out to each of God’s creatures.

Imagine the cross of Jesus, covered in a growing vine. A vine strong enough for hands to hold on to and never fear of falling off. I do not need to see the vine to know it is there. All I need to do is feel its strength, know it is alive, and believe that if I reach through the gaps between leaves, I can help pull others to the safety of God.

A Devotion for the Fourth Sunday In Lent

This is the fourth entry in the UCCDM Lenten Devotional 2015. This reflection comes to us from Mr. Robert Kates an M.Div. student at Brite Divinity School. 

Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and God saved them

God sent out God’s word and healed them, and delivered them from destruction.

Psalm 107:19-20 (NRSV)

As a child, I would cry out to my mother and father when I was afraid, cranky, hungry, or in pain. My parents always seemed to be there for me, coming to my rescue, though today I know they were not. Not that they did not care for me. They were both busy medical doctors, always hearing the cries of others and not always mine. However they did make sure I was always comforted, always held and rocked to sleep, always fed, and always healed, having those ‘boo boos’ on my knees and hands kissed away with kindness.

I was blessed as a child, as many were not and still today aren’t. My parents could not always be there for me or with me, but I have come to know that they desperately cared for me, by supporting me with the love and kindness of others. I was truly blessed as a child.

Many years later, both my mother and father, have passed on to what I believe is the ultimate life to be living. Yet in their absence I have come to know my Mother/Father/God is always, somehow present in my life. Just as my parents were always, somehow present in my life, my Heavenly Parent is also.

I still have periods in my life when I am afraid, cranky, and hungry or in pain. Not as a child anymore, but now as an adult, an adult dealing with the consequences of physical disabilities. And just as that child I have cried out to my God, pleading for comfort, desperately needing the therapeutic solace of being rocked to sleep at night in my pain, to be fed when I could not swallow, and to have my old man ‘boo boo’s’ on my legs massaged away so I could attempt to walk again.

It is not easy feeling like one is a child again, at the mercy of the world around you. But again I am blessed. For my God is always present, through God’s own actions of care or those healing actions by others where God’s spirit resides.

I was blessed as a child, but now I know I am truly blessed even as an adult. Thanks be to God.

Our Mother/Father/God, from time to time…we all cry out to You. From time to time…we all share multiple inabilities within ourselves that we are afraid to face. From time to time…we all become lost and seek your guidance.  So dear God of All possibilities, show us, lead us to awareness, make us face those challenges in life, that from time to time, stand in our way. Make us realize that with Your Support and Your Love, there is always another way, perhaps even a better way. For it is within Your possibilities we find our way and our selves. Amen.

Covenants That Make Us Come Alive

This is the third entry in the UCCDM Lenten Devotional 2015. This reflection for the Second Sunday of Lent comes to us from Ms.Danielle Rochford who is a current board member of UCCDM. Her bio can be found on the Board of Directors page

17:1 When Abram was ninety-nine years old, the LORD appeared to Abram, and said to him, “I am God Almighty; walk before me, and be blameless.

17:2 And I will make my covenant between me and you, and will make you exceedingly numerous.”

17:3 Then Abram fell on his face; and God said to him,

17:4 “As for me, this is my covenant with you: You shall be the ancestor of a multitude of nations.

17:5 No longer shall your name be Abram, but your name shall be Abraham; for I have made you the ancestor of a multitude of nations.

17:6 I will make you exceedingly fruitful; and I will make nations of you, and kings shall come from you.

17:7 I will establish my covenant between me and you, and your offspring after you throughout their generations, for an everlasting covenant, to be God to you and to your offspring after you.

17:15 God said to Abraham, “As for Sarai your wife, you shall not call her Sarai, but Sarah shall be her name.

17:16 I will bless her, and moreover I will give you a son by her. I will bless her, and she shall give rise to nations; kings of peoples shall come from her.”

Genesis 17:1-7 15-16 NRSV

When God spoke to Abraham he wasn’t just offering another covenant as a sign of his love; yes God was offering assistance, providing an accommodation to an infertile couple, but there is more to this story than what meets the eye.  God was offering a covenant to a couple who, back then and still today, would be categorized as having a disability.  What God was really saying when offering the covenant was “Hey, I care for you and have your back.”

As congregants we are familiar with certain covenants.  It is a simple, but important, statement that reminds us we are all human, we all have strengths we all have weaknesses, we are all different but we are all welcomed where we worship. Covenants are used as a way to understand that someone will have our backs; we make them in committees, we ask ministers to make covenants when being commissioned, and we use them as a set of guidelines to start a relationship with a fellow congregant we sometimes have almost nothing else in common with.   No matter how different each covenant is in language the message is the same “Hey, I have your back can you have mine?”

In the fashion of being formed in the likeness of God I come from a congregation that has utilized covenant to provide a safe space for those with developmental disabilities.  As someone with Asperger Syndrome, a syndrome that resides on the autistic spectrum, what seems like a simple social interaction such as small chat becomes complex for me and sometimes overwhelming. While others keep up speedy conversations with ease I have to remember to wait for natural pauses to speak, to keep up with a conversation when I am still processing what was said five minutes ago, and interpretation.  Constantly remembering not to flinch when someone in the coffee line accidentally touches me is hard and the question “How has your week been” offers challenges in my navigation of appropriate small chat interactions.

I often find myself thinking “Why am I the only one who finds this challenging? How can others adapt so easily to these interactions?  Can someone have my back please as I feel like I’m drowning in these murky waters!” Covenants are formed to help us all on these journeys.  Every member of a congregation, from the staff to the security guy who works evenings to the congregants.  We form covenants for formal projects and initiatives, for community building, but what about a covenant that supports individuals who dance to their own drummer through no fault of their own.  It started out small for me; an unspoken agreement with the associate minister and I to listen to each other with open minds and open hearts, for both of us to give constructive feedback, and me realize I am not just in this by myself but she was willing on working to understand me.   She may be retired now but our covenant has gone “viral” and spoken or not others see it and realize that it is what makes our congregation different and welcoming.

Let’s form these living covenants and know that we are all in relation to each other. My covenant that started with one radically liberal minister has grown to include a staff member who checks in with me every Sunday and offers direct feedback but knows that sometimes we both have to work on understanding each other. The congregants who intentionally start conversations with me to work on my small chat skills, the elderly congregant who loves to hug but allowed me space to get used to being touched, and those who recognize what an autistic meltdown looks like and will offer to find me a quiet space to calm down in.   It’s a covenant that didn’t exist when I went through the process of becoming a member at my current congregation, nor when anyone else goes through their own processes of membership, but it has evolved overtime because we are all here on this journey together. It does not require advance knowledge of the other person, a congregational study in disabilities, or an official document declaring these covenants.   It doesn’t always have to require even an official statement from church staff saying “this needs to happen”.

I am intrinsically drawn to religion, called to provide ministry, and at the same time I often exclaim that I find my sanctuary in my church family; the covenant that has been created allows me to find a non-judgmental space where I am welcomed in as I am.  I am reminded, on occasion, that no matter how hard I try to “pass” as non-disabled for anyone on the outside looking in there are signs that I, and others, sometimes struggle with.  The covenant that exists has allowed me not to be anxious when I enter my house of worship and take part in church life be it attending the annual Chicken and Biscuit Dinner each fall or, to be even more daring, going to other member’s house for a Saturday brunch without needing assistance.  As I have grown up to feel more comfortable by myself, an introvert out of necessity, even I sometimes crave social interaction and acceptance.

On this second Sunday of Lent I send out a call asking each of us to consider what covenants we have in our lives.  I then ask to consider what covenants can be formed with others with our own personal struggles.  It is time to acknowledge that we are created in the likeness of God and through that have the ability to form covenants with others that show our own understanding and love for each other.

A Word of Hope on Ash Wednesday

This is the second entry in the UCCDM Lenten Devotional 2015. This reflection for Ash Wednesday comes to us from Mr. Robert Kates an M.Div. student at Brite Divinity School. 

But whenever you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you.

~Matthew 6:6 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)

I have prayed to my Mother/Father, God, many times behind my closed door. First, over twenty-five years ago when I felt that door slam in my face with the reality of HIV/AIDS and now these past seven years having developed polymyositis, a disease that affects all the muscles of the body. For that door opens onto a staircase leading down to the first floor. There are 14 steps.

However doors do have door knobs, God has shown them to me. They can be opened and walked through, even though now I may require a walker. And that staircase beyond my door must be descended cautiously, and climbed passionately. Yet still God has shown me nothing is impossible, nothing is forever, everything has possibilities even when they seem ultimately futile. There is always hope or another way to achieve things.

The door that slammed in my face twenty-five years ago has miraculously turned into a chronic disease, no longer an ultimate death certificate, and not to become the last door in my life with which to deal.

The door opening onto my exterior staircase going down those fourteen, very scary steps, may eventually be replaced by a door leading onto a ground level sidewalk with no steps, maybe perhaps an easy sloping ramp.

God has shown me my abilities by rewarding me with the knowledge to take care of myself. How to turn the door knobs in life. God has given me back my life, my dignity, to take control of my life once again and live it to its fullest. Abling me to transcend many doors, and descend and ascend many staircases.

For there are doors for everyone to heal behind and then venture out from. Doors are of benefit, meant for privacy and intimacy, but never for exclusion.

Right before Christmas, this year, I had a relapse of my polymyositis. I was in the middle of fall, final exams at seminary. I fell and could not walk for three days. Today I can, but carefully. This is encouraging considering I graduate this spring from seminary and hope to be ordained in two years, before I turn 65.

Perhaps God still wants me to keep walking out that door to the staircase, to use those steps as daily exercise so as to forestall my disease, perhaps negate it. Perhaps God keeps challenging me, because once I am ordained, my concern will be with other people’s challenges. I hope always to have doors to pass through, and pray behind.

Ash Wednesday Devotion

This is the first entry in the UCCDM Lenten Devotional 2015 series. This reflection for Ash Wednesday comes to us from Rev. Jeanne Tyler, Co-Chair of UCCDM Board of Directors. Her bio can be found on the Board of Directors page

2 ¹ Blow the trumpet in Zion;
    sound the alarm on my holy mountain!
Let all the inhabitants of the land tremble,
    for the day of the Lord is coming, it is near—
a day of darkness and gloom,
    a day of clouds and thick darkness!
Like blackness spread upon the mountains
    a great and powerful army comes;
their like has never been from of old,
    nor will be again after them
    in ages to come.

¹²Yet even now, says the Lord,
    return to me with all your heart,
with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning;
13     rend your hearts and not your clothing.
Return to the Lord, your God,
    for he is gracious and merciful,
slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love,
    and relents from punishing.
14 Who knows whether he will not turn and relent,
    and leave a blessing behind him,
a grain offering and a drink offering
    for the Lord, your God?

15 Blow the trumpet in Zion;
    sanctify a fast;
call a solemn assembly;
16     gather the people.
Sanctify the congregation;
    assemble the aged;
gather the children,
    even infants at the breast.
Let the bridegroom leave his room,
    and the bride her canopy.

17 Between the vestibule and the altar
    let the priests, the ministers of the Lord, weep.
Let them say, “Spare your people, O Lord,
    and do not make your heritage a mockery,
    a byword among the nations.
Why should it be said among the peoples,
    ‘Where is their God?’”

~Joel 22:1-2 12-17 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)

I like Ash Wednesday. I like being marked with the sign of a cross in ashes on my forehead. I feel placed in community as an equal to all those alongside me. We hear ancient words like “Blow the Trumpet”, “gather the people”, “listen”, and “rend your hearts and not your garments”. It seems strange to write about hearing the words when I struggle to hear.

I like being in line with others in front and in back of me waiting to be marked with the sign of the cross. I feel placed in community as an equal to those in front and those in back. We wait patiently expectantly for the time will come. It seems strange to write about walking as though it is a given when I experience trouble with balance.

I like hearing the word “repent”. It means to change. I discover in the Book of Joel, God is repenting along with humanity. For the prophet Joel it is the people that are called to repent. It is the community that is called to repent. And it is also God who repents of the anger that if activated could destroy creation. Joel’s take is why would God place the divine reputation to the test?

When I read the Prophet Joel, I am reminded of the community to which I belong is the source of my being. The community is powerful enough to place me as an equal among others. This is truly a blessing for I experience alienation from myself and from others.

Ash Wednesday is the beginning of Lent which is a journey that the community takes together. The journey changes us. Repentance for persons with disability may mean giving up passivity in light of the disability and taking on activism on behalf of the self and others. It may mean claiming gifts that come alongside the disability. It may mean an acknowledgement that the community needs the wholeness and holiness we include to be whole and holy in and of herself as church. Repentance may mean for persons who are temporarily able bodied and able mindful to be attentive to and committed to the inclusion of all gifts of all people. This makes the church whole and holy. The journey means all these things and more but surely these are essential to the journey that is Lent.

Call For UCCDM Lenten Reflections

UCC Disability Ministries Seeks Lenten Reflections

Last year the UCC Disabilities Ministries Board posted Lenten reflections to their website. These reflections were based on the Lenten lectionary and were provided for Ash Wednesday, Sundays in Lent, and Maundy Thursday-Easter Sunday.  These reflections offered views of the biblical texts through the lens of disability and provided new and/or alternate ways to preach, teach, reflect upon or pray over familiar passages of the Bible.  These reflections were written by people with disabilities or people with significant knowledge of persons with disabilities.

As Lent approaches, we wish to once again provide these resources to assist pastors and parishioners, church leaders and pastoral caregivers in their Lenten studies, preaching, work, and caregiving. We invite those who wish to write similar reflections this year to choose a date below and submit your reflection to: submissions@uccdm.org by the deadlines listed.

Note that all submissions must address the text through a lens of disability to be considered. Thank you in advance for your submission.

The UCC Disabilities Ministries Board

Publishing, Identity, and Communications Committee

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Instructions for the Reflection:

 

Must be based on Lenten Lectionary

Maximum number of words:  900

Quotations of others’ work is not permitted

Format:  word doc, Google doc, email text

Authors will not receive compensation for their reflections

Authors will be notified if selected

 

Dates and deadlines for reflections and submissions

 

Ash Wednesday Feb 18

Submission due Feb 12

 

First Sunday of Lent Feb 22

Submission due Feb 12

 

Second Sunday of Lent Mar 1

Submission due Feb 19

 

Third Sunday in Lent Mar 8

Submission due Feb 26

 

Fourth Sunday in Lent Mar 15

Submission due Mar 5

 

Fifth Sunday in Lent Mar 22

Submission due Mar 12

 

Palm Sunday Mar 29

Submission due Mar 19

 

Maundy Thursday Apr 2

Submission due Mar 19

 

Good Friday Apr 3

Submission due Mar 19

 

Holy Saturday Apr 4

Submission due Mar 19

 

Easter Sunday Apr 5

Submission due Mar 19

 

Easter Monday Apr 6

Submission due Mar 19